Mary, I think of you every single day! We spent some difficult and yet precious moments together. You were one of the bravest persons that I have ever met. I will never forget the first time I saw you when you were waiting for your chemo at Scripps Clinic and I was waiting for a blood test. You looked so tired and sad...with your cute hat on. And what a surprise it was the next day when Genevieve invited home a new friend from school, Kelly, and you, Mary, were the one who came to pick her up! What a coincidence, or was it? Shortly after you got so strong and pretty with your blond curly hair. I was always amazed at your great sense of humor! Even my parents still talk about all the laughter you had together with your sisters when you visited them in Las Vegas! I felt so much better in your company! We had tea together and walked around for hours talking about our personal tragedies and tried to laugh and support each other which wasn't always easy... You had one big advantage, however, you loved and had faith in God and I, on the other side, felt only anger and frustrations. Your only worry was to my surprise: "are you going to make it to Heaven?"....and I kept reassuring you - "if you don't make it there, being such an Angel, Mary, who would!" I know for sure that you are in Heaven, my dear, together with my beloved son, Martin. Both of you are my guardian angels in the sky!  Now I am the one who is worried if I will make it to Heaven to be there together because I am still very angry at God and I still have difficult time going to church. Mary, I know that you are looking over Kelly - she is more beautiful each day! Please, send me a message my dearest and reassure me that YES, there is afterlife and that you and my son are OK and that we'll be all together there someday! That's the only hope I have! Until then!

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